Semester Break Diaries

 Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.  Yesterday I got the chance to have an amazing conversation with one of my mom's friend, Kak Asma. She was very nice and cute, and I'm truly inspired by her story. We went on a one day trip to Alor Setar, I and my siblings went along with Kak Asma. We have a chance to hear Kak Asma amazing experience through her 30s journey, how she can be successful, support her family, brought her parent to umrah, travel around the world, buy all the things that she want. She told us that she's going to South Korea for the second time, and I ask her how she save her money for that trip. And it is where our long conversation begins.  She told us that she's been to Indonesia, Thailand, Singapore, Australia, Mekkah & Madinah. She say that, back then she's just an ordinary student, ordinary person, comes from an ordinary family, her dad was a retired soldier and her mom was a babysitter. She was the first born child and I think she was the strongest one....

  Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.  It's just a normal day, where I'm laying at the sofa in the living room , both my legs crossed each other, it's gloomy outside and the cold breeze started to get in, and this is the time for me to continue reading my novel. You know it's a good book when you forget that you were reading.  Then suddenly, someone called, I read the name and it's was "My Dad". I quickly pick up the phone, and clear my throats before I started talking, "Abati.." I called, Abati is an Arabic name I called my dad which equally means My Dad. Then no sound at all. I called again "Abati..can you hear me?".  Then my dad didn't answered just the noise sound I don't even know what it is. Then I end the call. Then I saw the call notification from my screen, this time, my dad call through our family Whatsapp group. I adjust my position from lazily laying to sitting up properly to prepare for any news from my dad. but long story sh...

  Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.  Hola people! I can't stop writing once I get back to it. It feels like a therapy, something that I need, something that urge me from inside to constantly write something. Okay so today's story start with me bragging again about my baby trees, it's started to grow taller people, mama trees is so excited y'all that make me want to go out and see that baby trees first at the morning as soon as i wake up, watching my baby trees growing felt like somewhere overwhelmed because I never grow a tree before. And I just finished reading a book today which make me giggling so much while reading that book because there's a lot of butterfly scenes, and it's 100/100 points for a happy ending. I hate stories with bad or sad ending. It feel like I can't accept it because I already had so many sadness in my life so I always wanted a happy ending. If I get a spoiler about a drama/movie which had a sad ending I would totally drop it. Sounds so pathe...

 Bismillahirrahmanirrahim  Yesterday as I viewed my high school friend wedding day photos on Whatsapp status, I think that I’m the only one who was near the location of the wedding but didn’t have even an intention to go there. While the other friends who far away were awfully sad because they can’t even attend that wedding. The number one reason why I didn’t want to go is because I didn’t even close to the bride and we rarely talked during our high school time so it’s kinda awkward for an introverted person like me to go and say “hey, congrats on your wedding !!”, I can’t even say that “hey”.  Next is because I have a bad memories at that school that will aches every inches of my heart when I thought about it. I change school quite a lot during my high school time and my memories at this school was the worse one. It can be forgiven but cannot be forgotten. That’s kinda tough. Number three, it was all just excuses I’ve made as an introverted to not socialize with people. ...

  Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum & Hi Everyone ! Hope you're having a good day!  I come to the thought that if you like something you do, i:e your work, your hobby, your task or house chores, you'll be really enjoying it. recently, I've come to a lot of things that i enjoyed, things that i didn't expect it will be something that i loved. After went back from a formal meeting that hosted by a NGO last week, there's something that hit me in my mind and soul where i come to the idea of changing myself. I don't want to do something that waste my time, energy, emotion, and give nothing in return. so I started to change myself day by day, step by step, little by little. I try to start off with waking up for fajr and not sleep after that which was normally a bad routine I did before, but I change my morning routine to not sleep after fajr, it's a big no for me at the moment. after i perform the prayer, I did some morning dhikr, then I grabbed my qura...