EP 1 : Into something I loved

 Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Assalamualaikum & Hi Everyone ! Hope you're having a good day! 

I come to the thought that if you like something you do, i:e your work, your hobby, your task or house chores, you'll be really enjoying it. recently, I've come to a lot of things that i enjoyed, things that i didn't expect it will be something that i loved.

After went back from a formal meeting that hosted by a NGO last week, there's something that hit me in my mind and soul where i come to the idea of changing myself. I don't want to do something that waste my time, energy, emotion, and give nothing in return. so I started to change myself day by day, step by step, little by little.

I try to start off with waking up for fajr and not sleep after that which was normally a bad routine I did before, but I change my morning routine to not sleep after fajr, it's a big no for me at the moment. after i perform the prayer, I did some morning dhikr, then I grabbed my quran, read some pages, and just by that small changes that I made, I can feel that my soul recharged early in the morning by connecting myself with Allah swt first.

Then I did some chores sincerely without anybody asking me to do, I never did the laundry this early before because I was known as the laziest person in my family, imagine a lazy person with a telekung/prayer outfit go out in the morning exactly at 7;30 AM to do the laundry. wearing a telekung is totally a sign that i'm still a lazy person. do the laundry this early kinda rare for me.

Now I know why the Prophet SAW prohibited us to sleep after fajr, as soon as I bring the laundry basket out, I can hear the birds romantically chirping, I can see the dark turn to clear blue-coloured sky as the sun is about to rise plus the beautiful green looks of the forest in front of my house, and I'm totally amazed with the view and the creation of Allah swt. SubhanAllah.

Then by 8;00 I started to help my mom making doughnut, in this unstable economic condition era, we need to have some financial support which is the reason why we selling the doughnut. My mom is very good at making doughnut. She started to learn making doughnut from my grandmother at the age of 9. If I can, I want each and every person in this world to taste my mom's 100 percent home and handmade doughnut because it taste really really good. it was magical.

There's few steps we need to make this magically tasted doughnut. one; knead the dough. two; make it into the doughnut shaped dough. three; fry it. four; coat the doughnut with our secret recipe chocolate. step four is why our doughnut is different from other normal doughnut. okay that's it, enough about doughnut because it's making me hungry just think about it.

Okay so after gaining about 500 calories eating my mom's doughnut, I send the doughnut to the place where we sell it then went home. Then out of no where I staring at our bushy look alike garden and think that I need to do something with that not so eye-pleasing garden. then I start gardening, out of the blue, even the cat outside didn't know that we have a gardener in this house. a gardener, sounds really weird to me. okay a "beginner gardener", that's even weirder. okay whatever the name was but it has something to do with gardening.

Actually I want to fill my morning with a beneficial activities so that i did not waste my time sleep all the morning like usually a lazy young person do. I start to grow a seed which I randomly found in our kitchen and guess what, after three days growing that random seed, it started to have a little leaf which I was so excited about, I tell each one of my siblings that I grow a baby tree everyone. I was so happy that makes me want to check it every day to make sure my baby tree is good. and suddenly this girl enjoy gardening which she never thought it was something that she will like one day.

There's also another few things I enjoyed, editing videos, reading romance novels, teaching online, driving somewhere, making my favorite Thai tea and coffee and more. If you really enjoy something you do, you're gonna love it.

Believe me or not, suddenly I feel the urge to write this digital diaries because I enjoyed writing so much before and I rarely write a diary after my family members died because of the covid-19. May Allah forgive all of them and grant them the highest level of paradise, aamin.

Now here I am, writing my digital diary randomly, on a Sunday night, at the living room with the only sound of fan. I'm back people :0